Precious Thots

There is so much to write
That I dont know where to start
You have left an imprint so bright
That a lifetime will not help distort

The journey so far, travelled so fast
Has been filled with memories from the recent past
Leaving me dumbstruck in considerable awe
That I had to fall back on my forgotten poetic skills to hem and haw

A lot of happiness and excitement
Interspersed with a lot of anxiety and disappointment
Your birth has been a miracle of life itself
A story so lush with action of yourself

The anxiety started much in advance by everyone
With your arrival eagerly expected and prayers done
I was the first to know the news, slightly before it came
For I had read tonnes of literature on the same

So when the results came, I was thoroughly overjoyed
And we shared the happy news with everyone and enjoyed
But immediately came the scare, bringing a tear
Rushing us to the hospital in nervous fear

The first 3 months were quite hectic
With your demanding mom becoming more erratic
With weird requests late at night, it was hard going
But for you my dear, nothing was beyond my doing

I have been following your growth right from when you were 8mm long
When I first saw you, a lovely angel with a heart fluttering strong
That brings tears of joy to my eyes even as I recollect the moment, so frozen in time
The most enduring of images there ever will be, seeing a life being born from mine.

Just when things were settling down in earnest
And everyone was getting excited and getting some needed rest
There came another shocker to our hearts, another stern test
For getting a baby as precious as you, everything has to be at its best!

I already had the checklist ready based on my extensive research
And was glad when the doctor checked all the boxes based on her scan and search
But my heart stopped a beat when she consulted her senior and saw a shift in her tone
And the mood became sombre when she finally broke the news that you dont have a nose bone!

This event triggered the most frantic search ever
From the US to India to Australia, family members wherever
To understand whether further diagnosis is absolutely required or not
Given the procedure will put you at risk, we didnt want to, but we were in a knot

At the end, we decided to put your well being at the forefront
And trust in the power of prayer from everyone we knew, and bear the brunt
Your mom had the courage to take in the longest needle I have ever seen
All to ensure that you are safe and healthy, the most precious gift there has even been.

The results came out normal, bringing collective relief after a while
And from then on, with due extra care, you didnt give us any further surge in bile
You took your own sweet time to finally develop your sweet little nose
But everyone around you went into panic mode until then, I suppose!

The first kick you gave had your mother screaming in joy and chime
And gave me the same feeling as seeing your heart beat for the first time
As days went on, she was making me jealous as you were responding to only her brush
But then soon realised that I had a calming effort on your adrenaline rush

We enjoyed the days counting down to the arrival of my dame
Scouring the internet and arguing countless times over your name
While enjoying your attention from inside your mom's tummy, constantly shifting positions
And keeping you engaged and singing lullabies through my ameteurish piano compositions

There was no shortage of drama just prior to your birth, a week ahead
First rushing us to think you wanted to meet me in a hurry, turning all our plans on its head
And then when we have finished re-scheduling everything, taking your time to come out
Keeping all of us waiting and guessing, 26 hours in all, even to the point the doctors were in doubt.

I was there all along, keeping your mom and yourself company, anxious after every BP drop
Waiting for my precious daughter to arrive, my most sought after prize
And then as suddenly as it was, there was a surge of activity and your head appeared with a pop
Taking even the doctor and experienced nurses by complete surprise

November the 12th, just as my sister always wanted and I had secretly hoped,
You came out with a loud sneeze, and just as soon I had you enveloped
My darling was in my hands and the next 15 mins were absolute bliss at last
Just you and me, looking into each other's eyes, while an eternity walked past

Not a word spoken, not a cry heard, you were just exploring with your eyes dashing
Having me completely mesmerised, I wouldnt have noticed if the world came crashing
I would have even failed to capture the previous moment if not for a eager nurse who told
Hearing her complement your long eyelashes, I was filled with pride as a dad only a few minutes old!

Then started the flurry of calls I didnt want to make
Although only a few minutes it would eventually take
I didnt want to lose even a few seconds of that precious time
When that instant connection was established between us, poetic beyond rhyme.

Even your great grand mother flew in at 85 yrs to witness your birth
So precious were you, although at 2.6 kg you were quite small in girth
Of all the names shortlisted, Sahana (Patience) was finally chosen as it struck a chord
And it did resemble the times you have made us desparately wait for you to break free from your cord.

To say that your mom has been through everything to bring you here
Is but a massive understatement, for the sacrifices she made for you my dear
From her food to her job, from her sleep to her greatest fear
Has all been for you and only you, my precious one born in the Rabbit year.

There is a lot more to say, but I am sure this verse is just one of aplenty
To describe my loveable girl that I have always wanted, my most precious dainty
But what better way to celebrate my 30th birthday than to compose this poem, long overdue
Smiling ear to ear as I commence describing the precious thots about you!

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One Step Closer

One Step Closer

Lot of things make news these days
But the most important ones are not those the newspaper conveys
Something that touches the heart and triggers pleasure rays
Are often the result of innumerable prays.

Neither the ones which make you smile in happiness
Nor the ones which make you scream in delight
Not the ones which make you squeal in excitedness
But the ones which make you cry, though not in plight

For the news is something
That is worth everything
At that point of time, nothing
Else seem as important, as that thing.

The way your emotions surge
The result of your long subdued urge
The way you always wanted it to be
Now that it is, emotions are let free.

The hop in your step, the end-to-end smile on your face
Your heart and its pent up feelings, it betrays
With nothing to stop you, all your emotions surface
And when one spots it, the resulting blush adds to your grace.

Sparkling eyes that makes the sun envious
The added pink tinge in your cheeks quite obvious
Happiness that abounds the heart is most precious
That there is still a long way to go, seems oblivious.

Aching hearts, crying souls and painful farewells
Been through it all, and now the sounds of wedding bells
Seem to ring in the not so distant future
Though till then, we might be a step ahead of our culture!

A missed opportunity a couple of years back
But God gave a good job to fallback
Experience, we gained, in work and life
That will stand us in goodstead when we become man and wife.

A lot we learnt through these years
Felt close in joy and dealt with our fears
Every fight brought us closer together
Waiting and longing and praying for fate to bring you hither.

Finally the day is nearing, when you will be with me
I cant wait to experience that moment of unprecedented glee
That we are meant to be together, God can foresee
Close together, from now on, forever we shall be!

Life is not going to be a smooth ride
And I need to find resources to provide
But with you by my side
I can leave all my worries aside.

The moment I met you, I knew this is it
That I have finally got my dream girl, every bit
An innocent girl with a golden heart, mine she did split
And here she comes, to set ablaze the light of love and life, in that slit.

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Long long ago

Long long ago

Long long ago came along a girl
Who has since taken over my world like a whirl
I have since seen the most beautiful love unfurl
Cos goddess as a gift, I had got through an URL

It all started off, seems just like yesterday
When all things gone wrong, I would still make hay
When my life was all about misery, and one kill
When I thot everything was nothing, you fit the bill

Just looking at you standing still
Motionless, seducing me like a pill
Grinding me to the limits like a mill
I have never thot abt dying but u created my will

Nice memories I will always have, of you my lovely garden
Of the moments you arrived through a beep and all those buzz
Wishing it lasted forever, I guard those memories like a warden
Happy and sad, those filled with flush and blush, fury and fuss.

Words seem endless, when your beauty plays a song
They seem non existent, when you do come along
Flutter, my heart does, whenever your mind screams
Cos I feel your feelings as fast as lightening beams.

Moments, so precious, have I collected
Across the two years, since we connected
Something I lost, the same thing I abducted
Alas, yours seem to weigh on me as its recollected.

A million things said and done
Doesnt equate to your brilliance and beauty
And the search has just begun,
For making you happy in life, is my duty.

Girls I have always revered and respected
And you, for the golden heart that you depicted
I have never been so closely inspected
And all my actions changed and perfected.

Without you, I wouldnt have been myself
Where in every action, thy come before self
Everything I do or say, you have changed to suit
Your sense of style and gentleness, you command to boot.

You have been my best loot
My most precious thing, I will hoot
Your health is the only sore foot
On shining silver, like soot.

"I love you" is all I can tell you
Undying love for you all through
Im sad that nothing much I can give today
But I really mean what I keep repeating everyday.

Im still in a flux on where I will be
But I want you always close to me
Every second, through my thots, I see
Your reflection in my heart, making me glee

Valentine's day is nothing special
Just an excuse for me to cover up our spatial
Seperation by uttering those words many a time
Only when I hear your voice, these thots become sublime

My current situation is grim
But you fill my heart to the brim
I have to get a heavy purse and frequent the gym
And as always your name becomes by fervent hymn.

Love is universal, so they say
And all I can do this day
Is to make u happy, I pray
Till the time, together we stay.

An effervescent passion
A controlled compassion
And a selfless deed for education
Together with a confused vindication

These are just a few of your traits
That acted as charming baits
For me to fall into a "trap"
Amazing how each other, we can fully map

You came into my life and filled my heart's gap
You are the best of the best, I can continuously rap
Thinking of you, my eyes resemble a tap
Cant stop admiring you, even when you are taking a nap

Im very proud of you, my dear
My heart beats for you, Im sure you hear
A thousand miles apart, we still appear
So close, our love always shifting up a gear

Time has never been on our side
But sooner or later, it has to abide
As our love transcends boundaries, bonafide
Sticking together for life, a wild ride

You can run, but you can never hide
From the fact that relationships rise and slide
Together, we have laughed and cried
Longing for my proudest moment yet, when you become my bride

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The search for love..

Stars shine only in the night
Is something that is said without insight
The sun is so close to us giving so much light
Yet people are ignorant that its a star, such blight!

So near, yet just so perfectly right
For life to sustain here, and thus is the plight
Of the people we love, giving us so much delight
And we conveniently ignore them whilst calling ourselves bright!

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Ninaivugal

Sometimes you get to chime what you think all the time... this is juz one of those precious moments..

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En kannil therivadhu paavadai
Pengalukku azhagu serpadhu nooladai
Azhagirke azhagu serkum un mellidai
Endhan uyirinil kalandhenakkali oru vidai

Un koondhal poovadai
Un kannam then adai
Nee nanaigiyil naan oru kudai
Indha ponnalil ivvarigalai nee udai

Undhan punnagayenum meladai
Un idhazh oru sevvazhai
Kazhuthil sumakkiraaye oru thazhai
En ninaivinil midhakkiraaye endhan paavai

Kaatrai pol en kangaloram alai
Kavidhai pol en sevigalil suvai
Kannedhiriye thondri nee en manadhinul marai
Kaalangal thorum poothu kulungum nee oru tharamai

Un aasaiye en latchiyangal enbadhu endhan parai
Kanneeraga kooda vilagi sellathe unnai serum varai
Ennai ennidam irundhu pirikkiradhe undhan paarvai
Eppozhudhu enakku kidaikkum undhan muzhunera servai?

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Irony

Written with my heart engulfed in sadness on hearing that yet another one of the bloggers whom I visit regularly is happily flying away.. They all do so that way, dont they? Including me..

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First you say "so long",
Then u just long
You get ur parents to come over and "ting tong"
But somewhere down the line, your heart becomes strong...

Every passing second, misery you prolong
Hammering your heart like a powerful gong
Exhausting lame excuses for flying many a furlong
Knowing that your decision was but a ping pong...

Realising u have got it all wrong,
You write a sad song
Finally u know where u really belong
A place u have ignored all along!

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The Blessing

Dedicated to a soul I truly care about, on her 23rd birthday.

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The Blessing

What have we in this world, so precious
That even a thought about it would taste delicious
A heart of gold, a body sculpted to perfection and a soul so gracious
That any attempt at describing it through words would be simply outrageous

A smile from ear to ear, so captivating
In its innocence and brilliance, it’s invigorating
It is a topic that is not worth debating
Cos just the purity of the package is so gravitating

I never had trouble finding words like I do now
Or for that matter, whenever I think about a vow
That I took a couple of years before
In the month of my birth, a date reading four times four

It aint a writer's block, far from it
When all I can do is think about it, every bit
Destiny, as its so often called, bound together
Two unstrung strands called him and her

Its often trivialized as just a four letter word
But that feeling is the best in life, not everyone can afford
And this I feel whenever I get to think
Of the titanic personality, who made my heart sink.

Separated by time and space, I yearn for her presence
Joined by our mutual feelings in every perceivable sense
Curse, I do, for I have to undergo this excruciating sacrifice
When in reality a wish in person and just a gentle hug would suffice

Twenty two years ago, on this wonderful day, five times five
When every single Indian soul then alive
Was rejoicing their heroes lift the World Cup trophy, live
So blissfully ignorant of the real blessing to arrive

When earth-bound came an angel from heaven
Having to go through human suffering, caused by the number seven
But God knows only the best people can handle the pain
That many others would give anything to abstain.

Sometimes I wonder why life has to be so unfair
That I have to be so far away from the people I really care
Tears that rolled down her cheeks, as her quivering lips did part,
When the last I saw of her and I had to depart,

Was like a blemish on an impeccable piece of art
Which continue to prick me, day in and out, like a dart
Cos after all, what I left behind was a piece of my heart
And will last till we no longer have to be physically apart.

Love is a feeling, people say, but I saw it in her eyes
Filled with innocence and faith, devoid of vice
I wish I can make this special day a bit of a surprise
Cos for me, she has definitely been the ultimate prize.

Millions aint worth a penny, if you are not with these people
For they think of you more than yourself, is justification ample
Just like my parents, who had set me an example
She, in every way, forms a perfect sample.

So painful it is to get words through, even if I feel they are due
When my eyes resemble sparkling leaves in the morning dew
Longing to resurrect my torn world and begin life anew
With a person, whom I have been with, just a few

Days, or was it years
Cos I was trying to suffocate my eyes and ears
Capturing as much as I could, while it lasted
As every moment without her is equivalent to being wasted.

I don’t like to send en e-card or something copy pasted
As only in my heart can I replicate how sweetly it tasted
Looking at her now, ever so beautiful, albeit digitally
I could feel her looking back at me, engulfing my heart totally

With her lovely glistening smiles
Aligned with smooth polished tiles
In my brain, every pixel re-compiles
Bridging two souls and 2000 miles

On this most joyous occasion
I would like to thank her for making me a better person;
Ever after she made her conquest after a sudden invasion
I have been dreaming about the future without any cessation -

After an evening of glorious glittering procession
Accompanied by classical musical percussion
And garnering the much-awaited religious permission
I will finally make my invaluable acquisition.

Worries lash her gentle heart, a thousand and one
And till now, I have managed to quench none
From the time I have known her, it has not all been joy and fun
But that’s life, and that’s the way it’s done.

My mistakes in the past, she has forgiven
Loves me, she does, this beautiful vixen
So do I, with all my heart, and dreams I have a ton
For our life together has just begun.

She’s a rarity of a girl that I want to preserve
Giving her joy and happiness that she eternally does deserve
A few thoughts I have translated into words with a lot more in reserve
Those that I can’t put in words, however much I have tried so far, let me conserve.

She has definitely been a divine blessing for me
As for a lot of others, and those loved ones will agree
On this beautiful day, I have but an intermittent plea
That my goddess, soon I will be able to see and forever let it be.

This aint really a worthy birthday present
And I still need to earn her parents' consent
But after electing to suffer, I am finally on the ascent
Hoping soon I can become worthy of being her match, a bit decent.

This physical separation, we have been left to silently rue
But in this new year, happiness and prosperity in plenty may you accrue
To start with, let me wish you
A Very Happy Birthday Janu!

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