The Blessing

Dedicated to a soul I truly care about, on her 23rd birthday.

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The Blessing

What have we in this world, so precious
That even a thought about it would taste delicious
A heart of gold, a body sculpted to perfection and a soul so gracious
That any attempt at describing it through words would be simply outrageous

A smile from ear to ear, so captivating
In its innocence and brilliance, it’s invigorating
It is a topic that is not worth debating
Cos just the purity of the package is so gravitating

I never had trouble finding words like I do now
Or for that matter, whenever I think about a vow
That I took a couple of years before
In the month of my birth, a date reading four times four

It aint a writer's block, far from it
When all I can do is think about it, every bit
Destiny, as its so often called, bound together
Two unstrung strands called him and her

Its often trivialized as just a four letter word
But that feeling is the best in life, not everyone can afford
And this I feel whenever I get to think
Of the titanic personality, who made my heart sink.

Separated by time and space, I yearn for her presence
Joined by our mutual feelings in every perceivable sense
Curse, I do, for I have to undergo this excruciating sacrifice
When in reality a wish in person and just a gentle hug would suffice

Twenty two years ago, on this wonderful day, five times five
When every single Indian soul then alive
Was rejoicing their heroes lift the World Cup trophy, live
So blissfully ignorant of the real blessing to arrive

When earth-bound came an angel from heaven
Having to go through human suffering, caused by the number seven
But God knows only the best people can handle the pain
That many others would give anything to abstain.

Sometimes I wonder why life has to be so unfair
That I have to be so far away from the people I really care
Tears that rolled down her cheeks, as her quivering lips did part,
When the last I saw of her and I had to depart,

Was like a blemish on an impeccable piece of art
Which continue to prick me, day in and out, like a dart
Cos after all, what I left behind was a piece of my heart
And will last till we no longer have to be physically apart.

Love is a feeling, people say, but I saw it in her eyes
Filled with innocence and faith, devoid of vice
I wish I can make this special day a bit of a surprise
Cos for me, she has definitely been the ultimate prize.

Millions aint worth a penny, if you are not with these people
For they think of you more than yourself, is justification ample
Just like my parents, who had set me an example
She, in every way, forms a perfect sample.

So painful it is to get words through, even if I feel they are due
When my eyes resemble sparkling leaves in the morning dew
Longing to resurrect my torn world and begin life anew
With a person, whom I have been with, just a few

Days, or was it years
Cos I was trying to suffocate my eyes and ears
Capturing as much as I could, while it lasted
As every moment without her is equivalent to being wasted.

I don’t like to send en e-card or something copy pasted
As only in my heart can I replicate how sweetly it tasted
Looking at her now, ever so beautiful, albeit digitally
I could feel her looking back at me, engulfing my heart totally

With her lovely glistening smiles
Aligned with smooth polished tiles
In my brain, every pixel re-compiles
Bridging two souls and 2000 miles

On this most joyous occasion
I would like to thank her for making me a better person;
Ever after she made her conquest after a sudden invasion
I have been dreaming about the future without any cessation -

After an evening of glorious glittering procession
Accompanied by classical musical percussion
And garnering the much-awaited religious permission
I will finally make my invaluable acquisition.

Worries lash her gentle heart, a thousand and one
And till now, I have managed to quench none
From the time I have known her, it has not all been joy and fun
But that’s life, and that’s the way it’s done.

My mistakes in the past, she has forgiven
Loves me, she does, this beautiful vixen
So do I, with all my heart, and dreams I have a ton
For our life together has just begun.

She’s a rarity of a girl that I want to preserve
Giving her joy and happiness that she eternally does deserve
A few thoughts I have translated into words with a lot more in reserve
Those that I can’t put in words, however much I have tried so far, let me conserve.

She has definitely been a divine blessing for me
As for a lot of others, and those loved ones will agree
On this beautiful day, I have but an intermittent plea
That my goddess, soon I will be able to see and forever let it be.

This aint really a worthy birthday present
And I still need to earn her parents' consent
But after electing to suffer, I am finally on the ascent
Hoping soon I can become worthy of being her match, a bit decent.

This physical separation, we have been left to silently rue
But in this new year, happiness and prosperity in plenty may you accrue
To start with, let me wish you
A Very Happy Birthday Janu!

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Then

Then

paarvaiyal abagarithen
pookalal alangarithen
kaigalil aravanaithen
kavithaiyai sorpozhinthen
kaalathal sezhal izhandhen
kangalaal sirai adaithen
ullathai parisalithen
kanavugalai pagirnthen
azhaginil vaayadaithen
peyarai swasithen
sirippai rasithen
vaazhkaiyai yosithen
muzhumaiyai nesithen
sugathai valarthen
manidhanaai peruthen
kavalaiyai aruthen
tholaivinil poruthen
kaanamal karuthen
muyarchiyaal viraindhen
ookuvippal sezhinthen
ullathai kavarnthen
arunigil varavazhithen
anbai arinthen
moondrezhuthil kavizhnthen
magizhchiyil karainthen
pasa mazhaiyil silirthen
punnagai malarnthen
kannathai parithen
latchiyathai adaindhen
muzhumaiyil nee then...

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Friend Philosopher Guide God

For the one and only one...

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Friend Philosopher Guide God

I dont know where and how to start
Cos you are as delicious as a pineapple tart
A smile that you spontaneously bring to my face
Everytime I think of you, every one of the days.

How much I yearn for a tight embrace
Conveying my greetings to my ace
On being with me, yet another year in life's race
And I would be overjoyed to receive your grace.

I owe you so much in life
Not to mention life itself
I am so far from you and your wife
Yet you always think of me before self.

So much I dream, which still remain dreams
That I wanted to give you, still unrealised I rue
But those recollections, of school days and ice creams
And you have given me everything I wanted, all through!

From balloons to Hot Wheels
To all that I now realise as one-sided deals
From the trembling hands that bandaged my wounded knees
To being with me all the time to get the books and pay school fees.

From melting your heart whenever you heard a "pleaaase"
To moulding me into a boy capable of living life overseas
From making me navigate a tricky adoloscence phase with ease
To pouring down my cheeks as I feel your absence when writing these.

From taking your deserved place in my heart on a permanent lease
To giving me memorable laughs and cornered grins with your uncanny tease
From making me realise, from a young age, the importance of courtesies
To taking pride when I lifted aloft my Best Conduct trophies.

To describe you, I cant find a fitting phrase
You are as brilliant as the sun's rays
From the image in my heart and what my history portrays
You mean so much to me, much more than what this poem says.

6"2 is the latest tamil movie
That doesnt promise much, says the tv
At 62, you are still tech savvy
My eternal pride, my internal envy.

You have been as good a teacher in my life as any other
People yearn for those they dont have, but I dont miss a brother
And a true friend above anyone I have ever got, even her
You will be etched in my heart and memories forever.

A philosopher, so perfect that I love it to the core
A reliable guide who has experienced my future before
The God, my god, that I have only heard in folklore
Without you around, for the past 6 yrs, I feel terribly sore.

I think of you all the time
Not being with you is the biggest of my crime
Your words, your blessings have shaped me in my prime
Your love I try to unwittingly return in the prayers I chime.

Memories bring a smile, so painful
Looking blankly at the skies with a face sinful
Trying to locate mercy, care, confidence and comfort, plentiful
That I always find in your words, reverberating ever so beautiful.

Through all this disdain I can declare
That you have done everything for me, beyond compare
And life is so pathetically unconvincingly unfair
That I dint allow you the luxury of choosing my pair.

Now I realise the true meaning of giving
Unto others without nurturing the returns
Tredding the big bad world with barely enuf for a living
Holding your invisible hand to traverse along the twist and turns.

When it comes to expressing how I feel now, I do miserably fail
In this impossible endeavour of putting forth love, words are of no avail
Having left with no choice, I stop this flow, although thoughts prevail
"I LOVE YOU APPA", something I have never told you, and thus I vail...

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Chinna Chinna Aasai

One of my favorite songs is "chinna chinna sigarangal" from "Kanaa Kandain". I was humming it and kinda tuned it blandly and turned it around a bit...for u know who. I tried singing it, but she couldn't bear the donkey in me. So here it goes in a much safer medium..

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சின்ன சின்ன ஆசை

சின்ன சின்ன சிகரங்கள் காட்டி செல்ல கொலைகள் செய்யாதே
உன் சிரிப்பில் எந்தன் புன்னகை என்றே எந்த நாளும் உரைப்பேனே
அன்பே நீ எந்தன் அருகில் வந்தாலே பாச மழையில் நனைப்பேனே
கண்ணே மணியே முத்தே அமுதே என்றே நானும் துதிப்பேனே

காதல் என் அருகில் வந்தாலே பயந்தே விலகி சென்றேனே
நீயோ எந்தன் வாழ்வினில் புகுந்தே என்னை நானே மறந்தேனே
நினைவில் தோன்றி கனவில் மலர்ந்தே நீனே வாழ்வென உணர்த்தேனே
மனதில் ஒளிறும் தீபம் நீயின்றி நேரதின் அர்தம் இழந்தேனே

செடிமேல் காணும் கொடிபோல் நினைத்தே உன் மேல் நானும் படர்வேனே
தெய்வம் தந்த பூவே உன் தேகம் பட்டு பாயென புகழ்வேனே
தாகம் மோகம் எல்லாம் உட்கொண்டு சொர்கம் சென்று வந்தேனே
நெஞ்சம் இரண்டும் ஒன்றென்று உனரவே கனவாய் நானும் மலர்வேனே

எந்தன் ஜீவன் எனக்குள் துலைந்தே உனக்குள் காண கிடைப்பேனே
அம்மா மடியில் சோர்வினில் சாயும் சுகத்தை உன்னிடம் பெருவேனே
எந்தன் பிரவி என்னோடு நீயும் பகிர கண்டு சிலிர்தேனே
இந்த ஜென்மம் உன்னோடு நானே முழுதாய் கழிக்க இயல்வேனே.

ரேண்டம் ஆக்ஸஸ்
தேடல் இப்பொழுது தான் தொடங்கி உள்ளது !!!

உதவி:
http://subhashini.blogspot.com/2005/04/writing-tamil-blog.html
http://www.jaffnalibrary.com/tools/Tsc.htm
http://www.suratha.com/reader.htm

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[Transliteration]
Chinna Chinna Aasai

chinna chinna sigarangal kaati chella kolaigal seiyadhe
un sirippe endhan punnagai endre endha naalum uraipene
anbae nee en arugil vandhale paasa mazhaiyil nanaippene
kanne maniyae muthe amudhe endre naanum thudhippene

kaadhal en arugil vandhale bayandhe vilagi sendrene
neeyo endhan vaazhvil pugundhe ennai naanum marandhene
ninaivil thondri kanavil malarndhe neene vaazhvena unardhene
manadhil olirum deepam neeyindri nerathin artham izhandhene

chedimel kaanum kodipol ninaithe un mel naanum padarvene
deivam thandha poove un dhegam pattu paayena pugazhvene
dhaagam mogam ellam utkondu sorgam sendru vandhene
nenjam rendum ondrendru unarave kanavaai naanum malarvene

endhan jeevan enakkul tholaindhe unakkul kaana kidaippene
amma madiyil sorvinil saayum sugathai unnidam peruvene
endhan piravi ennodu neeyum pagira kandu silirthene
indha jenmam unnodu naane muzhudhai kazhikka iyalvene

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Konangal

I really think actions speak louder than words...And this is just what I want to say.

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கோணங்கள்

வார்த்தைகள் வீணாகும்
ஞாபகங்கள் நிழலாகும்
எண்ணங்கள் கனவாகும்
உன் கரங்கள் அன்பாகும்

லட்சியங்கள் தவமாகும்
புன்னகை பண்பாகும்
பாராட்டு சிலிர்ப்பாகும்
உன் செயல்களே வாழ்வாகும்.

ரேண்டம் ஆக்ஸஸ்
தேடல் இப்பொழுது தான் தொடங்கி உள்ளது !!!

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Konangal

Vaarthaigal veenagum
Nyabagangal nizhalagum
Ennangal kanavagum
Un karangal anbagum

Latchiyangal thavamagum
Punnagai panbagum
Paarattu silirpagum
Un seyalgale vaazhvagum

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